After the heartbreak of a few weeks ago, the medications have arrived and a week tomorrow injections will start again! Something her ladyship is very much looking forward to! This time, it’s injections followed by injections and tablets, then tablets and pessaries! So many dates and times to get my head around again!
It is looking like transfer will be start of January! 😄 Exciting and scary times again!
Stay safe and ciao for now!
Not much to write except it looks like my period has started today. I say looks, it’s very light but I’m pretty sure that’s what it is. The clinic says to test even if there’s bleeding but I can’t help but think this round is over.
It feels like another disappointment in a long list at the moment. And to cap it off, we are currently sat outside in the car with neighbours and pets in tow due to a chemical smell in our adjoining porches! Her ladyship woke up and wanted to see the back of the fire engine but decided having climbed up it was too cold!
I think we’ll be having a lie in tomorrow… if we can get back in our house!
Stay safe and ciao for now!
Since I last wrote, things have been an emotional roller coaster. Having gone from 7 eggs ton5 embryos, the phone call on Friday was to say that we had 1 grade 2 embryo (scale 1 to 4 with 1 being best), 1 was grade 2/3 and 3 were grade 3.
Then yesterday, after a game of phone tag, I received a message to say that 1 embryo was where it should be on day 3 whilst the others were behind and a little suboptimal for day 3. Whilst it wasn’t a failure there was a feeling of dread that things had been so positive but were staring to fade.
This morning the news was very similar but the embryo that is most likely for transfer is also slowing in its progress so I now have to wait for a phone call in the morning to let me know if is a go or not. They are giving the others time to catch up so we will see. I’m holding on to the hope that they will make it but I can honestly say that this is the most anxious I have felt throughout the whole fertility process. Probably not helped bybthe progesterone I am taking!!
Anyway, stay safe and ciao for now.
Well, the early start was definitely more stressful than the last time, due to running around after a 3 year old who was adamant she was not going to get ready and if she was it would absolutely be in her own time! After dropping her ladyship off at my wonderful friend’s and being chauffeur driven by my dad, I was treated to a very enjoyable nap even if it was preceded by a not so enjoyable procedure. I was given a lovely concoction of paracetamol, diclofenac, fentanyl and medazolam. The procedure went smoothly, I have vague memories of being uncomfortable but the more the day has gone on the less I remember.
As I said before, I was really anxious this time after getting just 2 eggs first time round. I even dreamt last night that we didn’t get anything. So, when the doctor came to tell me they had collected 7 eggs, I had to double check that I had heard correctly!
Now, I know that they still have to go through the fertilisation process and the chances are, they won’t all make it but at the moment, I am feeling a bit more positive!
It’s now 8 hours after the procedure and it is safe to say, the good meds are running out and I am somewhat uncomfortable. And obviously, this means my gorgeous daughter wants to lie on me and dig elbows and shoulders right where it hurts!!
It’s weird to think that, right now, those eggs are in a petri dish and the little swimmers are trying to do their thing! I will get a phone call in the morning with an update. Due to a good progesterone result we are on for embryo transfer on Monday, assuming all goes well over the next few days. So, fingers and toes are crossed!!
Stay safe and ciao for now!
Another monitoring scan today which showed we are all good to go with egg collection on Wednesday! I had forgotten how nervous I get at this point, although I think I am more so this time round as I only got 2 eggs last time and I am 4 years older. I am determined to stay positive and remember that out of those 2 last time, I have my gorgeous, if not very sassy, daughter!
The abscess on my boob has also greatly improved although, the antibiotics have been brutal! And with the added stress of the crack in my living room floor still not being sorted, I feel I need some serious relaxation therapy!!! 🤯
Anyway, I will update on Wednesday, keeping all fingers and toes firmly crossed. Speaking of which, I was told today, I do not need to remove my gel nails for Wednesday so that made me happy!
Stay safe and ciao for now!
So, second monitoring scan done today and it showed I have 4 follicles in the left ovary and 3 in the right (these are just the follicles, we won’t know about eggs until collection). They are not quite ready yet so another scan on Monday, then hopefully egg collection on Wednesday!
All very good signs but I’m still very anxious about it all. Probably ly not helped by the nice little abscess I have on my boob! It was a late night last night trying to get antibiotics! There is also the stress of moving!!! What is it they say, it never rains, it pours!!! Not sure who they are but they’re right!
Just staying positive!
Stay safe and ciao for now!
This morning was… eventful! Obviously, this is me, so nothing goes simply or smoothly. After allowing myself lots of time for traffic, Lily and I left the house early ready to drive to the clinic, ONLY I didn’t account for her NEEDING her mirror so she can see herself and her second mirror so she can see herself and me. This delayed us a bit but ok. Then we had a car decide it needed to take up two lanes so despite needing to turn left, we had to wait for the queue of traffic to very slowly turn right. Then we got stuck behind a car that didn’t know where it was going so needed to stop and look at EVERY road name in a housing estate. Traffic was pretty rubbish and I watched us go from 10 minutes early to then 10 minutes late. At which point a little voice in the back says, “Mummy, I feel poorly.” Oh, good!
Then comes the words no parent wants to hear… “Mummy, I feel sick.” I am now in the centre of Bath so quickly find a car park, pleading in my head that she won’t be sick. I park, run around the car, spot a bag and grab it, then I put it under her chin where she had her hands covering her mouth! She then pulls her hands away and says, “I’m ok now.” Right, panic stations over… move the bag away… “I’m going to be sick!” Bag straight back, just in time! Clean up and off we go!
Thank goodness for my amazing friend who was meeting us there to wait with her ladyship, who went in and explained what had happened! Needless to say, not the most relaxing start to the day!
We finally got there and the scan went as well as it could nice empty ovaries, everything looking nice and boring! Zoladex has done it’s job! So onto the next medication which is stimulates the ovaries to release those beautiful eggs. I did my first injection today with the help of her ladyship! She was disappointed that the mark from the injection disappeared and did stick around! Thanks, kid! She’s already looking forward to tomorrow’s! Oh, she has been absolutely fine since the vomit incident! She’s eaten and it playing!
I, on the other hand, am feeling horribly nauseous and now I am trying to work out whether we have got something or if it’s meds related! 🙈
I guess we will see!
Ciao for now and stay safe!
Wow, 9 months has flown by. Life has not exactly gone to plan. I left my job at Easter as it was negatively impacting my physical and mental health and more importantly was having a huge negative impact on my relationship with my little girl. I loved so many aspects of my job but in that line of work, if you don’t have support, it’s just unbearable. I miss the children but I lost so much confidence in myself and my teaching. I have now struggled to get a job since and that is hitting my confidence each time. The only thing that has kept me going is my daughter and the thought of having another little one. Oh and the two trips to Disneyland Paris helped! 😜
After my big fat negative in October, I was told time was of the essence to trying again. The plan was repeat bloods then get going. Only, it turned out my thyroid function tests showed I am now officially Hypothyroid. Sonic was now back to taking thyroxine and getting the TSH levels down. My TSH was 8 and had doubled from my previous tests a matter of months before. I needed the level to be below 4. Ideally, below 2.5! So, for the last 6 months I have been gradually increasing my thyroxine doses to get to the correct dose to bring it down. As of June, my levels are now down to 2.9.
My next hurdle was the fact that I had put on weight… and quite a bit too. I was eating my emotions again. So, I have been back at Slimming World so I can lose it again. So far I have lost half a stone and at my clinic appointment last week I was told I was 100g over the weight limit… I knew I should have been to the loo before i was weighed!!!!
I have had an AMH blood test which is a test thst gives an indication of egg reserves. My AMH was 7. Now, I’ll be 100% honest, that means nothing to me but my consultant said it was good! I had a quick Google (something I do not usually advocate) and I found a chart that said average for my age is 6.4 so I guess 7 is good!
My next step now is to have my SW weigh in on Tuesday, then send the weight into the clinic. I was so sure that my tests were going to be terrible and that my appointment was going to be negative, I actually didn’t really take much else in and didn’t ask the question of when I could actually start! But I am hoping asap!
I’ve talking with her highness about whether she wants a brother or sister and she has been quite adamant she wants a brother. However, I found out that she had been telling people the other day I am having 2 babies!!!! I know I always said I wanted 3 but that would be a shock!
Anyway, speaking of her highness, I need to go and convince her it is bed time. Wish me luck!
Stay safe and ciao for now!
She’s 2!!! Time really does fly by! I’ve heard people say the new born phase is the hardest… I would disagree! It’s exhausting but compared with the stubborn toddler phase, it was a breeze! She gets everywhere and into everything, she’s very bossy and very stubborn! And I love her more than anything!
We are going through a phase of refusing to nap, then being grumpy and emotional because of being so tired. She’s not at the age where you can explain that a nap would make it better so it’s a case of pushing through! And let’s face it, I can’t really complain, she basically me in toddler form!
Her personality is really shining through now, she loves music, swimming, gymnastics and playing with her friends. She has the most amazing laugh as well, a real belly laugh! It’s adorable! She changes her food tastes on an hourly basis, which makes shopping and cooking a nightmare! She takes after me and loves all things Disney, particularly Stitch!
I feel so privileged to be her mum and so proud of the person she is turning into. She drives me potty but I wouldn’t change a hair on her head because she’s mine!
That’s probably why I’m thinking about number 2…!!!
Happy birthday baby girl!
Well, I’m admit, this is not a first I was looking forward to. But, I do think I’m lucky it’s taken this long! This last week we experienced our first bout of a very nasty gastro bug.. together! Her ladyship started it first, last Wednesday, then I started overnight on Thursday. It included a nice trip.to the children’s hospital for some dehydration and my washing machine has definitely been put through its paces! I also hate to think what it has done to the electricity bill as we have had the radiators and heated airer on battling to make sure we have clean babygros and pyjamas!! Oh and the bedding! 🙈
To say I am exhausted, would be an understatement. But we are doing much better. We had to postpone our Christmas outing yesterday and it will now be a new year’s outing but we definitely wouldn’t have made it!
I did have a moment over the last few days when I thought that extra person would be helpful but we had lots of snuggles, watched Christmas movies and made it through, just the two of us!
3.2.24
I started writing this blog post back in December! And as you can probably tell there was quite a bit going on so I have only just noticed I never actually pressed publish! We got through that joyous gastro bug just to pick up a flu bug for Christmas!
And now? Well, we have spent the morning in the children’s hospital following a nice little ambulance trip! My poor girl has a virus and was quite poorly overnight I phoned NHS111 in the hope of getting a GP appointment after a night of very high temperatures but was sent an ambulance instead. They then decided she needed to go in and see the doctors.
After a few hours (and a bigger dose of medicine) temperature came down and she was much more settled so we came home. We’re now lying in bed where she has been asleep for a couple of hours. It’s so hard seeing your little one even more vulnerable than they normally are. I’m just going to make sure she has lots of cuddles, until she’s better and wants to start playing and causing chaos again!
It’s not all been illness though. We had a lovely Christmas (despite my flu). Lily met Father Christmas for the first time although she was far more interested in checking out his living room and fireplace that talking to the man himself! Then, we spent New Year’s Day at Longleat. We have been before but this was the first time Lily really appreciated the animals and even became a bit of a pro at a wolf impression!
Now we just need this cold weather to go along with the bugs and we can get on with enjoying 2024!
Stay safe and ciao for now!
Wannabe Mummy 