Tag: Fertility

Highs, Lows, long waits and unbelievable emotions!

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Sorry! I have had a few messages from people who have been patiently waiting for updates on progress and I admit everything got a bit much there for a while! Not just with the upset of the end of last year but then Christmas, her ladyship and I tag-teaming bugs and desperately job hunting!

Long story short, I tried again in January but unfortunately the round had to be cancelled which turned out for the best as I ended up with a chest infection and lovely temperature. Having a temperature can affect implantation so maybe things do happen for a reason. I started back on the injections (her ladyship was very happy about this), then onto the oestrogen tablets, then after a successful scan with a beautiful looking endometrium, it was onto the progesterone pessaries. Last week, I had a double embryo transfer and I am now in the dreaded 2 week wait.

It was decided to transfer the remaining 2 embryos after 2 failed transfers, age and the fact that these 2 had been slow burners and took an extra day to get to blastocyst stage. There are risks of multiple pregnancy but it was a case of weighing up the odds. There is also the increasing cost of medication, and the more cycles I go through so after a chat with my consultant, we decided to get both in there and hope for the best.

The day before my transfer, I had a progesterone blood test and it showed my progesterone was a little low so I now have the joy of 6 pessaries a day… yes you read that right, 6!

I don’t know whether I just forget how hard I found it on the previous cycle but I feel like the anxiety gets worse with each one. I am having ridiculous vivid dreams and I can’t get to sleep with my brain racing. Even my nighttime routine of listening to Stephen Fry reading Harry Potter is not helping! (I am currently on round 3 of the series!). This time, I am absolutely exhausted as well! Possibly down to not sleeping! 

The temptation to do a test early is insane this time. I am such a stickler for sticking to the 2 weeks but I am really struggling not to try. I intentionally haven’t bought a test yet just to stop myself. And the mood swings and nausea seem worse this time! The progesterone really is kicking my backside!

Anyway, I’m off to listen to Goblet of Fire and hopefully get some sleep before work tomorrow!

Sorry for the quick run down. Any questions, please do message and ask!

Stay safe and ciao for now!

Here we go again!

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After the heartbreak of a few weeks ago, the medications have arrived and a week tomorrow injections will start again! Something her ladyship is very much looking forward to! This time, it’s injections followed by injections and tablets, then tablets and pessaries! So many dates and times to get my head around again!

It is looking like transfer will be start of January! 😄 Exciting and scary times again!

Stay safe and ciao for now!

Not to be

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It looks like it wasn’t to be this time. The bleeding has been on and off and very light so I held out hope it was an implantation bleeding but today’s tests have proven otherwise.

After lying in bed between 4am and 5am, I finally got up to do the test. I had 2 tests so I did them both and both negative.

Feeling numb now, but her ladyship woke up and gave me a massive hug… it’s like she knew!

Anyway, now to move on.

Stay safe and ciao for now.

The course of true love never did run smooth…

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And nor does that of IVF. The phone call this morning resulted in no transfer. There was an option to transfer one of the embryos but it would have been an extremely low chance of working, so the decision was to carry on trying to grow it in the culture and see what happens. There are 2 others left, which are also being given the chance to develop by tomorrow. If any of these develop to the correct stage tomorrow, they will be frozen and transferred at a later date.

The embryologist is contacting me later today with an update. By leaving them until tomorrow, we will also have a better idea of their viability.

I’m not going to lie, it feels like a massive kick in the gut. You start questioning whether you’ve left it too long. I know it’s not completely over but with every phone call, I feel the chance slipping away. But then I read stories of women who have all their embryos go tonday 6 and they have gone on to successful pregnancies! The embryologist and I both agreed a crystal ball would be great right now!

Anyway, I’m off to raid our stash of chocolate buttons!

Stay safe and ciao for now.

What a roller coaster!

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Since I last wrote, things have been an emotional roller coaster. Having gone from 7 eggs ton5 embryos, the phone call on Friday was to say that we had 1 grade 2 embryo (scale 1 to 4 with 1 being best), 1 was grade 2/3 and 3 were grade 3.

Then yesterday, after a game of phone tag, I received a message to say that 1 embryo was where it should be on day 3 whilst the others were behind and a little suboptimal for day 3. Whilst it wasn’t a failure there was a feeling of dread that things had been so positive but were staring to fade.

This morning  the news was very similar but the embryo that is most likely for transfer is also slowing in its progress so I now have to wait for a phone call in the morning to let me know if is a go or not. They are giving the others time to catch up so we will see. I’m holding on to the hope that they will make it but I can honestly say that this is the most anxious I have felt throughout the whole fertility process. Probably not helped bybthe progesterone I am taking!!

Anyway, stay safe and ciao for now.

Egg collection.. success!

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Well, the early start was definitely more stressful than the last time, due to running around after a 3 year old who was adamant she was not going to get ready and if she was it would absolutely be in her own time! After dropping her ladyship off at my wonderful friend’s and being chauffeur driven by my dad, I was treated to a very enjoyable nap even if it was preceded by a not so enjoyable procedure. I was given  a lovely concoction of paracetamol, diclofenac, fentanyl and medazolam. The procedure went smoothly, I have vague memories of being uncomfortable but the more the day has gone on the less I remember.

As I said before, I was really anxious this time after getting just 2 eggs first time round. I even dreamt last night that we didn’t get anything. So, when the doctor came to tell me they had collected 7 eggs, I had to double check that I had heard correctly!

Now, I know that they still have to go through the fertilisation process and the chances are, they won’t all make it but at the moment, I am feeling a bit more positive!

It’s now 8 hours after the procedure and it is safe to say, the good meds are running out and I am somewhat uncomfortable. And obviously, this means my gorgeous daughter wants to lie on me and dig elbows and shoulders right where it hurts!!

It’s weird to think that, right now, those eggs are in a petri dish and the little swimmers are trying to do their thing! I will get a phone call in the morning with an update. Due to a good progesterone result we are on for embryo transfer on Monday, assuming all goes well over the next few days. So, fingers and toes are crossed!!

Stay safe and ciao for now!

It’s a go!

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Another monitoring scan today which showed we are all good to go with egg collection on Wednesday! I had forgotten how nervous I get at this point, although I think I am more so this time round as I only got 2 eggs last time and I am 4 years older. I am determined to stay positive and remember that out of those 2 last time, I have my gorgeous, if not very sassy, daughter!

The abscess on my boob has also greatly improved although, the antibiotics have been brutal! And with the added stress of the crack in my living room floor still not being sorted, I feel I need some serious relaxation therapy!!! 🤯

Anyway, I will update on Wednesday, keeping all fingers and toes firmly crossed. Speaking of which, I was told today, I do not need to remove my gel nails for Wednesday so that made me happy!

Stay safe and ciao for now!

And another scan done!

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So, second monitoring scan done today and it showed I have 4 follicles in the left ovary and 3 in the right (these are just the follicles, we won’t know about eggs until collection). They are not quite ready yet so another scan on Monday, then hopefully egg collection on Wednesday!

All very good signs but I’m still very anxious about it all. Probably ly not helped by the nice little abscess I have on my boob! It was a late night last night trying to get antibiotics! There is also the stress of moving!!! What is it they say, it never rains, it pours!!! Not sure who they are but they’re right!

Just staying positive!

Stay safe and ciao for now!

One scan down…

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This morning was… eventful! Obviously, this is me, so nothing goes simply or smoothly. After allowing myself lots of time for traffic, Lily and I left the house early ready to drive to the clinic, ONLY I didn’t account for her NEEDING her mirror so she can see herself and her second mirror so she can see herself and me. This delayed us a bit but ok. Then we had a car decide it needed to take up two lanes so despite needing to turn left, we had to wait for the queue of traffic to very slowly turn right. Then we got stuck behind a car that didn’t know where it was going so needed to stop and look at EVERY road name in a housing estate. Traffic was pretty rubbish and I watched us go from 10 minutes early to then 10 minutes late. At which point a little voice in the back says, “Mummy, I feel poorly.” Oh, good!

Then comes the words no parent wants to hear… “Mummy, I feel sick.” I am now in the centre of Bath so quickly find a car park, pleading in my head that she won’t be sick. I park, run around the car, spot a bag and grab it, then I put it under her chin where she had her hands covering her mouth! She then pulls her hands away and says, “I’m ok now.” Right, panic stations over… move the bag away… “I’m going to be sick!” Bag straight back, just in time! Clean up and off we go!

Thank goodness for my amazing friend who was meeting us there to wait with her ladyship, who went in and explained what had happened! Needless to say, not the most relaxing start to the day!

We finally got there and the scan went as well as it could nice empty ovaries, everything looking nice and boring! Zoladex has done it’s job! So onto the next medication which is stimulates the ovaries to release those beautiful eggs. I did my first injection today with the help of her ladyship! She was disappointed that the mark from the injection disappeared and did stick around! Thanks, kid! She’s already looking forward to tomorrow’s! Oh, she has been  absolutely fine since the vomit incident! She’s eaten and it playing!

I, on the other hand, am feeling horribly nauseous and now I am trying to work out whether we have got something or if it’s meds related! 🙈

I guess we will see!

Ciao for now and stay safe!

Update…

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It’s safe to say the side effects are kicking in! Hot flushes, seeing red when someone looks the wrong way at my child and putting a cucumber in the cutlery drawer to name a few! I’m embarrassed at how long it took me to realise why the drawer didn’t look right!

Hormones are great aren’t they!