Here we go again!

After the heartbreak of a few weeks ago, the medications have arrived and a week tomorrow injections will start again! Something her ladyship is very much looking forward to! This time, it’s injections followed by injections and tablets, then tablets and pessaries! So many dates and times to get my head around again!

It is looking like transfer will be start of January! 😄 Exciting and scary times again!

Stay safe and ciao for now!

Not to be

It looks like it wasn’t to be this time. The bleeding has been on and off and very light so I held out hope it was an implantation bleeding but today’s tests have proven otherwise.

After lying in bed between 4am and 5am, I finally got up to do the test. I had 2 tests so I did them both and both negative.

Feeling numb now, but her ladyship woke up and gave me a massive hug… it’s like she knew!

Anyway, now to move on.

Stay safe and ciao for now.

Not looking good..

Not much to write except it looks like my period has started today. I say looks, it’s very light but I’m pretty sure that’s what it is. The clinic says to test even if there’s bleeding but I can’t help but think this round is over.

It feels like another disappointment in a long list at the moment. And to cap it off, we are currently sat outside in the car with neighbours and pets in tow due to a chemical smell in our adjoining porches! Her ladyship woke up and wanted to see the back of the fire engine but decided having climbed up it was too cold!

I think we’ll be having a lie in tomorrow… if we can get back in our house!

Stay safe and ciao for now!

Good news!

Only a quick one today as I am looking after a poorly pre-schooler!

I had a phone call from the clinic yesterday to say they had  managed  to freeze the last 2 embryos! I really didn’t think it would be possible. These little ones are already keeping me on my toes!

Anyway, back to the poorly princess.

Stay safe and ciao for now!

My head is spinning!

After cancelling the transfer this morning, I was waiting for an update this afternoon to see whether 1 or all 3 were looking good for freezing. So, imagine my shock when the phone call I got was to ask me to come into the clinic as one of the embryos had hit blastocyst and had developed the sac in needed and was good to go! The clinic is an hour away so, as I was weirdly half an hour early for preschool pick up anyway, I grabbed her ladyship out early marched home, got her in the car and got my bum to the clinic!

She was so good at the clinic and came in for the transfer. She sat brilliantly and was so polite!

And now I have a potential baby on board!!! Seriously, what is going on?! I am do exhausted I am already in bed!

Now for the dreaded 2 week wait! 😱

Stay safe and ciao for now!

The course of true love never did run smooth…

And nor does that of IVF. The phone call this morning resulted in no transfer. There was an option to transfer one of the embryos but it would have been an extremely low chance of working, so the decision was to carry on trying to grow it in the culture and see what happens. There are 2 others left, which are also being given the chance to develop by tomorrow. If any of these develop to the correct stage tomorrow, they will be frozen and transferred at a later date.

The embryologist is contacting me later today with an update. By leaving them until tomorrow, we will also have a better idea of their viability.

I’m not going to lie, it feels like a massive kick in the gut. You start questioning whether you’ve left it too long. I know it’s not completely over but with every phone call, I feel the chance slipping away. But then I read stories of women who have all their embryos go tonday 6 and they have gone on to successful pregnancies! The embryologist and I both agreed a crystal ball would be great right now!

Anyway, I’m off to raid our stash of chocolate buttons!

Stay safe and ciao for now.

What a roller coaster!

Since I last wrote, things have been an emotional roller coaster. Having gone from 7 eggs ton5 embryos, the phone call on Friday was to say that we had 1 grade 2 embryo (scale 1 to 4 with 1 being best), 1 was grade 2/3 and 3 were grade 3.

Then yesterday, after a game of phone tag, I received a message to say that 1 embryo was where it should be on day 3 whilst the others were behind and a little suboptimal for day 3. Whilst it wasn’t a failure there was a feeling of dread that things had been so positive but were staring to fade.

This morning  the news was very similar but the embryo that is most likely for transfer is also slowing in its progress so I now have to wait for a phone call in the morning to let me know if is a go or not. They are giving the others time to catch up so we will see. I’m holding on to the hope that they will make it but I can honestly say that this is the most anxious I have felt throughout the whole fertility process. Probably not helped bybthe progesterone I am taking!!

Anyway, stay safe and ciao for now.

7 little eggs sitting in a dish…

5 fertilised to embryo stage! Assuming all continues to go well, transfer is set for Monday lunchtime. I’m still on edge but also really chuffed that 5 made it through the night!

Still uncomfortable today and the indigestion is terrible but otherwise all good. Just continuing to keep fingers and toes crossed!

Stay safe and ciao for now!

Egg collection.. success!

Well, the early start was definitely more stressful than the last time, due to running around after a 3 year old who was adamant she was not going to get ready and if she was it would absolutely be in her own time! After dropping her ladyship off at my wonderful friend’s and being chauffeur driven by my dad, I was treated to a very enjoyable nap even if it was preceded by a not so enjoyable procedure. I was given  a lovely concoction of paracetamol, diclofenac, fentanyl and medazolam. The procedure went smoothly, I have vague memories of being uncomfortable but the more the day has gone on the less I remember.

As I said before, I was really anxious this time after getting just 2 eggs first time round. I even dreamt last night that we didn’t get anything. So, when the doctor came to tell me they had collected 7 eggs, I had to double check that I had heard correctly!

Now, I know that they still have to go through the fertilisation process and the chances are, they won’t all make it but at the moment, I am feeling a bit more positive!

It’s now 8 hours after the procedure and it is safe to say, the good meds are running out and I am somewhat uncomfortable. And obviously, this means my gorgeous daughter wants to lie on me and dig elbows and shoulders right where it hurts!!

It’s weird to think that, right now, those eggs are in a petri dish and the little swimmers are trying to do their thing! I will get a phone call in the morning with an update. Due to a good progesterone result we are on for embryo transfer on Monday, assuming all goes well over the next few days. So, fingers and toes are crossed!!

Stay safe and ciao for now!

It’s a go!

Another monitoring scan today which showed we are all good to go with egg collection on Wednesday! I had forgotten how nervous I get at this point, although I think I am more so this time round as I only got 2 eggs last time and I am 4 years older. I am determined to stay positive and remember that out of those 2 last time, I have my gorgeous, if not very sassy, daughter!

The abscess on my boob has also greatly improved although, the antibiotics have been brutal! And with the added stress of the crack in my living room floor still not being sorted, I feel I need some serious relaxation therapy!!! 🤯

Anyway, I will update on Wednesday, keeping all fingers and toes firmly crossed. Speaking of which, I was told today, I do not need to remove my gel nails for Wednesday so that made me happy!

Stay safe and ciao for now!